what am i thinking?

30 days 30 days 30 days left!!!! hooray!!!! =P
these 30 days gonna pass so so so very soon!!
then u will be back! but then i asked myself.. 'so what?'
so what if u really got back from there?
what so special what so great after u were back?
i can do what?? after u were back i can do what?? ...
is it so important enough to wait for his returning?
so why i am so expected for your return?
even every day i making countdown for the day u back..
sometime i really wanna make the time goes faster pointed to 12am..
then it will be the next day.. and one day canceled..
i so happy that today it eventually turns to 30 days..
which mean it still have twenty more days to go..
but so what.. har?? after 30 days then so what??
wonder why i crying while writing this.... i so stupid!