i beg it!

yesterday night before slept i had thought of him again..
i was unable to have any resistance to against it..
and it flashed across my head just like a nasty mosquito flying around..
i hate it! damn it! damn damn damn it!!
i was tired of tat.. really so tired..

can someone kindly tell me how love really is?..
sob.. we were moving away from each other farther and farther..
i insisted tat i had forgotten him..
coz without him i can still live well..
since from beginning i was just the only one..

i can only used to blame myself of being unideal to him..
i regretted.. very regretted tat i loved him..
innocence.. i didnt know wat love really was perhaps..
i thought.. for him i didnt do the enough best..
cant even fulfill his heart with all my loves and cares..
though i had done and gave them all..
instead i've had brought him pressures and constraints..
i really so sorry tat i had brought him so much unsatisfying..
i am really really sorry.. very very sorry..
so please.. your image.. please delete and erase..
please.. i really beg it.. T^T